Age Abiding Life

I feel tears as I begin to write.
What can I say to all You given me.
The perfect conditions You've set in place for my life.
The ministry that's come to me thru my family, friends, and Calvary Chapel.
Your daily nourishment to me thru Your word.

And as the blood rolled down Your hands, You saw this.
You would restore every benefit to me
I can't think of any words.
I just see blood rolling down Your hand, and You almost smiling as You see my life flow through Your mind with a million others, yet completely knowing my life as if I were the only one. Evjoying all as if You only had one. And my life is "the joy set before You" for which You endured the cross.

You restored every benefit to me. I have all the privileges and blessings and I can't revoke Your work for me. It's all mine. Age-abiding life. Perfect relationship with the Father. I think about this life, I may as well forget it. This is a brief pause before my true life will be written.

I enjoy You Lord. I wish I had no flesh clouding my view. I wish I had a perfect will. Someday we'll have perfect fellowship. Someday I'll step out of this self-justifying husk and take my seat at the table...I hope it'll be the one at the end there.

"Eternity is written on the heart of every man" What every man has desired I have. I have age-abiding life. I have no legacy or heritage to leave, I am and always will be. I was not, but I am and will be...age without end. All the servants and kings who desired eternal life, who invested themselves in laws, awards, statues, contributions. They can't obtain what I have for free. I am for ages without end.