Only Have Me All

I know how to strive, to lust, to want
But to give You all my soul, I am a stranger

I am Your garden enclosed, Your special city
Lush with life drawn from Your veins
I am the work of Your hands

Yet to myself I give my soul
And for me I am spent
With my soul I love myself
I cannot do other

Privileges and blessings keep
On earth and in heaven
Only have my soul

Walk in me Your garden
And with me be content
Delight Your soul within my own
Let me be Your joy

Have me all, Beloved Friend
Know my soul throughout
I ask You not for gifts or callings
Only have me all

Age Abiding Life

I feel tears as I begin to write.
What can I say to all You given me.
The perfect conditions You've set in place for my life.
The ministry that's come to me thru my family, friends, and Calvary Chapel.
Your daily nourishment to me thru Your word.

And as the blood rolled down Your hands, You saw this.
You would restore every benefit to me
I can't think of any words.
I just see blood rolling down Your hand, and You almost smiling as You see my life flow through Your mind with a million others, yet completely knowing my life as if I were the only one. Evjoying all as if You only had one. And my life is "the joy set before You" for which You endured the cross.

You restored every benefit to me. I have all the privileges and blessings and I can't revoke Your work for me. It's all mine. Age-abiding life. Perfect relationship with the Father. I think about this life, I may as well forget it. This is a brief pause before my true life will be written.

I enjoy You Lord. I wish I had no flesh clouding my view. I wish I had a perfect will. Someday we'll have perfect fellowship. Someday I'll step out of this self-justifying husk and take my seat at the table...I hope it'll be the one at the end there.

"Eternity is written on the heart of every man" What every man has desired I have. I have age-abiding life. I have no legacy or heritage to leave, I am and always will be. I was not, but I am and will be...age without end. All the servants and kings who desired eternal life, who invested themselves in laws, awards, statues, contributions. They can't obtain what I have for free. I am for ages without end.

Slowing To A Still

This morning I heard Abeelen teaching the verse, "He must increase, I must decrease."

At our last Saturday prayer meeting, I found myself praying that I wouldn't serve out of any false energy.

Last night and this morning I found myself lacking things to pray about.

And during our church meeting yesterday, I felt the desire to produce fruit in our college study.



A pendulum slowing in its course

Time bends with each pining movement

Til at last all is still

Silence announces the hour, quarter and half

Heaven and earth continue in Divine rhythym

Unaware that no voice asserts their progress

Has the Almighty need of a mechanism?

Or a created thing to accomplish His will?